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The Internal Talk

Have you ever wondered how it feels like to talk to your inner voice? It feels like it's you yet wiser,  deeper and patient.

Here's my conversation with my little...



Closing my eyes
It's where I am now...
Where am I?
In the depths of your very own mind.

How?
It's your choice, not mine.

Why?
You did say you'll not run.

When?
It's anytime you are ready... anywhere you physically might be.

What now?
Listen, breathe and believe. For you are safe.
I'll not hurt you baby, I promise I won't.

And so I did... stepping a little into the depths of my own mind. Afraid yet aware of my fears. Unshaken for it is all of me.
And so... words again flowed in.  The way it always had been...


Why am I like this?
Why do I always end up here?
The voice in my head smiled..
"For you are alone" 
Is this the way it will always be?
Loneliness cannot be replaced
For it's within you
Deep into your soul you are.

I embraced myself,
Oh the fear of loneliness.
I embraced my life,
Acknowledging I'll walk down all alone.

I didn't want to admit it
For it means it's the truth
But nothing can defeat it
When deep within that's real.

Loneliness I may be
But no longer will I drag others in
Loneliness I may feel
But no longer shall I let it live within 
I can be alone but not lonely
I don't need to fill my time
Or force things through
For this is not the way it should be 
God, hear my prayers
Let me through
Let your love and light shine
As I find myself within 


Yes, afraid I am
But yours unconditionally I shall learn
Let me find and live my purpose within
And fulfil others the same.

I'll take your terms as promised
I'll not run too far or too long
Let me walk the journey you've decided
Each step, each way - light, love & truth.

I'll put my trust in you
The way you always did with me
No matter how far or high I've run
I'll turn return back to your light I come.


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